I don’t know what happened to us but now we don’t exist. there’s you and there’s me and there’s that one pesky line thats stopping us from reaching eachother and there’s the stars that we both look at but there is not an us anymore. not that us ever really existed to begin with but i must admit it was so lovely to hold on the tip of my tongue and so wonderful that I just pretended. but you didn’t know how to commit to anyone that wasn’t yourself, and I couldn’t really be in love when I didnt really know what love was, I just wanted what everyone else had.
It’s not the words that make it final, you’ve said such things such things before to rival them. But it’s how you say them now that’s changed, cold but sympathetic all the same. Lie to convince me that i’ll be better off, you go on and i’ll be happier. Shoot me with your rubber bullets, your finger’s on the trigger, pull it, I know you want this suffering to end, so it is forgivable my friend.
You know you love me, I know you care, you shout whenever and I’ll be there. You are my love, you are my heart and we will never ever ever be apart. Are we an item? girl quit playing, we’re just friends, what are you saying. Said there’s another, look right in my eyes, my first love broke my heart for the first time.
Tracey says: She does it to get you going Erika. She wants you to like her because shes likes the ATTENTION. so…what does she do…makes you mad so you give her attention and make you feel bad so that youll come crawling backa nd her what she wants
Erika. says: The thing is i know I’m only in her life because I give her attention. I know that I’m not dumb. But. I like giving her attention I like making her feel better about herself, I like being the person she looks to for help.
Tracey says: is it help, or is she just looking for something in someone that she cant find at home. She doesnt want you for you, she wants you for how you make her feel. Its not the same as love.
The silence is so lonely, and it feels like years since I’ve been able to feel the way I did back then. My head aches and my stomach turns and it’s still not enough to put me into the set of mind that I can’t seem to grasp. Happiness should be a given. But I can see it on her face, that she had never felt this way. All these eyes are constantly staring back at me, and I’ve been wondering what their trying to say, the mouth opens, but all of a sudden I’m in a silent movie. And the silence is yet again, lonely. I can’t hear what anyone else is saying, your words are constantly playing in my head, and your drowning me in self pity.
I knew I loved her after the seventh time I left her house and ventured toward my own. The second I walked out the door I felt lost, I missed her so much it hurt, and it had only been a matter of seconds for this to wash upon me. My heart raced from thinking about the adventures we had, and it made the cold air seem more bareable. And her laugh, God her laugh. It was impossible not to look at her, everything else went black and she’s all I saw. Her smile was contagious, and I just couldn’t get enough.
“Wait for the person who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person. Wait for the person who will be your best friend, the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances, for the person who makes you smile like no one else and when they smile you know they need you. Wait for the person who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and a t-shirt, but appreciates it when you get dressed up for them. and most of all wait for the person who will put you at the center of their universe, because that’s where you belong.”—(via poeticheartache) (via eemmaa) (via theseviolentdelights) (via moonbounce) (via dharmmabumm) (via christinels)