January 2010
I withdrawal my feelings, and every word I ever said, every thought that ever accumulated in my head.
My resolution is that you will just be a lesson in my memory, in my early years.
December 2009
13837.) what am i doing wrong? i wish there was...
(via blogsecret)
Everyone knows and just wont say anything.
If I'm venting because I'm pissed,
yourwrite:
you as my friend shouldn’t try to tell me how misplaced my complaints are. Fucking empathize with me like how I do with you all the time. Don’t “one up” me.
I’m so sick of hearing you complain about stupid shit. But I never tell you how stupid it is. I listen, and try to make you feel better.
God forbid I ever say ANYTHING about what’s bothering me. Because if I do, you’ll always be...
I don’t get it. I’d look at picture after picture at you back then.
and now now looking at them, I feel like I made you up.
I was so incredibly obsessive in love with you that I think your a fiction of my damn imagination
And I misss you so fucking much.
prove your real and come back.
I need you.
I loved you long before it was trendy.
Remember that.
“And she reads my mind when I’m sleeping
And she always arrives when...”
– Sam Roberts- Don’t walk away Eileen
Christmas.
This day always brings back so many emotions that I run out of pockets to keep them in. They start tearing at the seams of my skin, stretching their way back in. I don’t know why I choose to see things for the vast disappointments that they are, but I do.
you were already gone before I found you.
“Everybody has difficult years, but a lot of times the difficult years end up...”
– Brittany Murphy (via julie911) (via quote-book)
All the good people die young.
I don't feel connected.
tonight, in the infinitesimal light of the stars, the trees and flowers have been strewing their cool odors. I walk among them, but none of them are noticing. Sometimes I think that when I am sleeping I must most perfectly resemble them- Thoughts gone dim. It is more natural to me, lying down Then the sky and I are in open conversation, And I shall be useful when I lie down finally, Then the trees...
Going from bestfriends to strangers scares the...
I’ve already been through this once. My best friend told me they were moving, I was torn. She didn’t end up going, But I still lost her as my best friend. I can’t lose another one, you’re too valuable.
thank you for this.
phdwhat:
“I know exactly how that is. To love somebody who doesn’t deserve it. Because they are all you have. Because any attention is better than no attention. For exactly the same reason, it is sometimes satisfying to cut yourself and bleed. On those gray days where eight in the morning looks no different from noon and nothing has happened and nothing is going to happen and you are washing a...
I just want to be close to you, and that is not an understatement. I don’t need all the things that normal people want, I don’t need that part of it. I want to be able to hold your heart in my hands, I know I won’t break it. I want you to hold mine, I want to know that you want to take it. I just want to hold you for all hours of the night. I wanted to be the one to reach you...
you've got nerve to walk right in, and think whats...
I’ve been down this road too many times with you.
Just so you know, there are days when I’m a complete and utter insecure, paranoid wreck. There are days when my eyes don’t shine and glisten, and my personality doesn’t automaticly uplift everyone around me. There are days when my egotistical side shines through and I’ll rip you apart with a glance.
“Just so you know, there are days when I’m a complete and utter insecure,...”
– via: I wrote this for you (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
lonely people are up in the middle of the night.
One day, the mention of her name won’t make me lose concentration. One day, I’ll be able to take a walk without wondering if I’ll end up at her door step. One day, I’ll be able to talk to her and not nervously fidgit with random things lying around. one day, I’ll walk around the place with my head held high, not glancing ocasionly into rooms searching for her face....
“Why you gotta throw me around like a rag doll?
You can toss me up, You can toss...”
– Ragdoll- Ashlee Simpson
damn you for making such catchy songs.
I need to get out of here but I have nowhere to...
cayleesmiles:
(via breathsoftruth)
my house dummy
It would be so easy to just call you and you would come running to me. But I don’t want to do that to us anymore. I have been straining our relationship, and I don’t feel what you feel. I’m the highlight of your day, but now your the low light of mine. I only talk to you when I feel that no one else can make it better. I can’t give you what you want when your not what I...
“It’s like all my life everyone has always told me you’re a shoe, you’re a shoe,...”
– Rachel; Friends 1x01 - “The Pilot” (1994) (via justanotherprettylie) (via thereal1990s) (via christinels)
I know you do.
It’s not that you don’t love me, because I know you do. I am the wind in the twilight night sky that pushes you into your tasks, and gets you through the night. I am your pillow which softens the blow when you get home drunk and disorderly, and in which you share your dreams with. I am the sweater that sticks to your skin and tries to isolate the heat and the hatrid from leaving your...
“In a strange way, I had fallen in love with my depression. … I loved it because...”
– Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation (via drunkenbutterfly) (via funeral) (via durian) (via questforyou)
IN A NUTSHELL.
You were mine first.
Loneliness is the only thing I've been feeling...
meowzedong:
I need to get myself a blow-up doll or something.
You’ve always been an angel to me, and you are always one step ahead. I, ill of health and buried in gloom, she, agile, graceful and overflowing with energy. I, living within my own heart, and addicted, body and soul, to the most intense and painful meditation, love. And she, carelessly roaming through life with no thought of the shadows in her path.
Why are people always waiting. I’m sick of waiting for rides, and for food to be ready, and for people to make up their minds. I am a very impatient person, but I’m am also very persistent. I will not give up on you, even if you’re not waiting for me.
I’ve always been a fan of yours, but I know I’m just a joke to you. I know how my words go in one ear and out the other, and you’re tongue is pressing against your teeth waiting to be fired. You’re emotions are a tornado, and I don’t want to be ripped apart anymore. I know you are aware of the affect you have on people, I know you sometimes don’t care. But I see...
earthlaughsinpublicperverts:
danielleloves:
inflightradio:
omg I love you
i wish to meet you tyra banks.
what happens when i need the shoulder.
I wish to be as strong as the words you say, but I can’t find the heart to tear myself away. I’m the drug that the doctor gives the patient to heal them, but soon the patient overdoses. The fears and words and loves all come flying back out at them at once. and this time there is no getting away. I am the cause of your despair. I am the reason for your hurting, and why your up in the...
